Hello,
Its cold in Oklahoma city today!!! Working through labor ready for walmart. It only pays $7.25/hr but it easy and inside. Im going around with no ID or SS card so be hard to get a better job at the moment. This cold weather is killing the business we haven't had a job in a month. I have got calls and put in bids but no hits. I don't know what I am doing wrong or if its just cause there is so much competition with more years under there belt. We do good work. We are efficient, clean, professional and personal. I guess its just another hump in the road. I keep thinking I just need one job to put it all back how it was. One big payday!!!
That's my problem....I'm a dreamer. I took one shot already and got a $8,500 but lost it cause of equipment issues. Hire a great crew but now I owe them a weeks pay but barely make it by myself on the jobs I get. With a lot of companies running backround checks these days a felony DUI 10 years ago still stops me plus not having my drivers license!!! Times have sure changed. I remember the day you could just go to work walk in to a business fill out an app talk to the manager and start working. Now you have to go online then go to an interview, then another interview where you take a drug test and physical. You pass all the tests are qualified for the job but then they say you didn't pass backround check!!! Then when you ask why....they say "it don't tell us that"!!!
So I don't get the job and I cant fix the backround cause I don't know if it the DUI I got in 2004 or the possiesion charge 12 years ago? So im stuck at a labor job that barely pays the bills. Just another frustration in our lives. At least we have a roof over our head and food in our stomach. Little steps to rebuilding our life the one I destroyed by losing everything and spending 5 years in prison. Then getting out and going right back to the booze and running away from my problems. Well I learned I cant run, just gotta stand tall and deal with it. I quit the booze, drugs and am trying harder than ever. I want more out of this life. I will make something out of it I will not go down as bum, hustler, or a guy who didn't live up to his expectations. I have screwed up my whole life. Im 37 years old and have nothing but everything. With my soon to be wife by my side for the last 12 years she is why I finally grew up. I don't like to see her cry cause she is worried about the bills, or a place to live or cause we lost it all again cause I decided to go on a binge. I don't know what life has for me. all I do know is drinking doesn't solve anything. Going on a blackout rage just makes it worse makes the one you love hate you and makes me not give a shit and fall farther. Ive did that my whole life!! Time for a change, time to be an adult take care of my duties as a man and love Laura evcry day the most I can cause without her in my life I would be dead. I wouldn't care, I would drink and drug my life away. thank you babe for being with me all the time for richer or poorer you never ran. So now I will be that man you always wanted. You are my heart and soul!!!!
William Rhodes
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